选电脑烦，将来要看好电脑、相机等烦，整理行李烦，想到要保管一大堆证件、卡什么的烦，宅太久了也很烦，什么都不想做也很烦，听到很多人的消息也很烦，突然间想念那些没料到会想念的人很烦，还有很多很多琐事弄得我很烦。

我现在很烦！！！

这不是一个可以继续的故事.
这不是一个可以重复的故事.
这不是一个可以流传的故事.

看完了这个假期里最好看的一本书, ToniMorrison的<宠儿>(Beloved).情节和写法很特别.场景描写真实而残酷,我相信黑人母亲的爱会打动每一个读者.看后会想,在那种非人的境遇下,是人伦还是自由更重要.出于爱,人们会作出怎样的选择?

听了MC的I Want To Know What Love Is,说实话,满失望的.她的翻唱之前几乎都不错(除了Open Arms和Do you know where you'er going to,个人意见),但觉得这次不乐观啊.我很喜欢也很习惯Foreigner的原唱,被改成这么短听着就是觉得少了些什么.重复了很多次,还是没办法喜欢,就第一段还不错.听完后,只想说:I want to know what love is, but I don't know if you can show me.

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds

No More Shall We Part 2001

这张是暑假里听最多的专辑.我听过全部或者几乎全部专辑的歌手或乐队不多,Nick Cave算其中一个.不像其他被冠上"gothic"标签的歌手,他的音乐不让人感到极端或容易不被人理解.

听这张专辑,就像到了遥远的北方,在蓝绿色的深水中没有时限地游动.没有呼吸,不会有气泡干扰宁静.在水中用力挥动四肢,展现不出力量,只是编出失重的舒缓的舞蹈.不知道自己是在下沉抑或是上升,只能感受神秘水域的颜色优雅地渐变,感受水温出奇地并不寒冷刺骨.

仿佛所有的忧伤都被你唱尽,却没有被你带到绝望的深渊,你带来的,是伸出水面一瞬间呼吸到的异常纯净的空气,看到的第一缕穿过枯树的阳光.

喜欢<As I Sat Sadly By Her Side>,让我想到一个空荡的黑色舞台,只有一束白光跟随一个女孩的身影.她不说话,只用舞蹈讲述,迷失在一个无时无刻不在坠落的世界里.剩下的,是想象中的道具,想象中的风,想象中的观众.那个讲故事的人,和他舒缓的钢琴声,一起停留在黑暗里,不曾现身.

As I Sat Sadly By Her Side

As I sat sadly by her side
At the window, through the glass
She stroked a kitten in her lap
And we watched the world as it fell past
Softly she spoke these words to me
And with brand new eyes, open wide
We pressed our faces to the glass
As I sat sadly by her side

She said, "Father, mother, sister, brother,
Uncle, aunt, nephew, niece,
Soldier, sailor, physician, labourer,
Actor, scientist, mechanic, priest
Earth and moon and sun and stars
Planets and comets with tails blazing
All are there forever falling
Falling lovely and amazing"

Then she smiled and turned to me
And waited for me to reply
Her hair was falling down her shoulders
As I sat sadly by her side

As I sat sadly by her side
The kitten she did gently pass
Over to me and again we pressed
Our different faces to the glass
"That may be very well", I said
"But watch the one falling in the street
See him gesture to his neighbours
See him trampled beneath their feet
All outward motion connects to nothing
For each is concerned with their immediate need
Witness the man reaching up from the gutter
See the other one stumbling on who can not see"

With trembling hand I turned toward her
And pushed the hair out of her eyes
The kitten jumped back to her lap
As I sat sadly by her side

Then she drew the curtains down
And said, "When will you ever learn
That what happens there beyond the glass
Is simply none of your concern?
God has given you but one heart
You are not a home for the hearts of your brothers

And God does not care for your benevolence
Anymore than he cares for the lack of it in others
Nor does he care for you to sit
At windows in judgement of the world He created
While sorrows pile up around you
Ugly, useless and over-inflated"

At which she turned her head away
Great tears leaping from her eyes
I could not wipe the smile from my face
As I sat sadly by her side

最后,加插一句,今天听到一首老歌,David Bowie的<Rock & Roll Suicide>,读了一首小诗,博尔赫斯的<蒙得维的亚>

拍成这个效果不是本意，却比清晰的效果更能表现对这个城市的感觉。其实更喜欢调成黑白后的感觉，有点疲惫，有点迷茫，不真实。光影掠过，留在脑海的只是一个印象，色彩是其次，毕竟所有的灯光也都只有那么些色彩。如果能设置图片背景不是现在的半透明就好了。

自己哈，一个95年的小妹妹拍的